A horrific experience, and still so much eloquence in your recounting of it. If you add a tip jar I’d love to support your work when I can - I can’t do regular subscription at the moment but would love to leave some kind of marker for my respect and wonder!
I feel this is my bones. The tight breathless knot of panic and fear, attempting to appear calm to the world. A few months ago my eldest autistic daughter - mid 20s & a classroom TA - had a no fault eviction from her tiny flat just round the corner from our home. Destroying all her carefully balanced support and energy regulation, held together by us & sheer force of will. Stealing her safe space. A month on from moving her into a new home, it’s still hard to breathe. Meltdowns and sleeplessness don’t just disappear. My heart feels bruised. How do we exist in the world knowing that other’s decisions can so simply dismantle the tiny worlds of calm & safety we try to build for ourselves and our kids? So glad you’ve had a reprieve from the wolf at the door. But the fear doesn’t just go, does it. Much love x
Huge exhale, and this is just me reading this Caro. I really can’t fathom these systems purporting assistance. So glad you have a bit of breathing (literally) space and so grateful for your sharing of this. Sending much care to you all
All decisions are economic and economic problems wipe all the others off the board — apart from health. I have been where you are. So many of us have. It’s a humiliating and isolating experience but you are absolutely not alone in it and you have done nothing wrong. Keep going. Bet on yourself and on love. Your girls are in good hands. Faith ❤️❤️❤️
Phew! I’m glad you got the outcome you needed 😬good luck with the house hunt. The state pretends to care but it simply doesn’t. some of the people care, but the cogs as you so well describe are cruel
A horrific experience, and still so much eloquence in your recounting of it. If you add a tip jar I’d love to support your work when I can - I can’t do regular subscription at the moment but would love to leave some kind of marker for my respect and wonder!
Ah it’s enough for you to comment and share. I really appreciate that x
I feel this is my bones. The tight breathless knot of panic and fear, attempting to appear calm to the world. A few months ago my eldest autistic daughter - mid 20s & a classroom TA - had a no fault eviction from her tiny flat just round the corner from our home. Destroying all her carefully balanced support and energy regulation, held together by us & sheer force of will. Stealing her safe space. A month on from moving her into a new home, it’s still hard to breathe. Meltdowns and sleeplessness don’t just disappear. My heart feels bruised. How do we exist in the world knowing that other’s decisions can so simply dismantle the tiny worlds of calm & safety we try to build for ourselves and our kids? So glad you’ve had a reprieve from the wolf at the door. But the fear doesn’t just go, does it. Much love x
I’m sorry Ruth. It really takes its toll doesn’t it. Sending love to you all xx
Caro thinking of you a lot. Hope i can see you in July CXXXXXX
Thanks love me too x
Empty words but Glasgow holding out her arms for you x
I do feel this xx
Really sorry you've been through such a wringer
It’s been pretty rough. Thanks for your lovely comments xx
You condense a terrifying and terrible experience into some beautiful and heartbreaking writing. Sending you all a big hug
Thanks Polly x
Huge exhale, and this is just me reading this Caro. I really can’t fathom these systems purporting assistance. So glad you have a bit of breathing (literally) space and so grateful for your sharing of this. Sending much care to you all
Thanks Jo. It’s knocked me a bit but on we go xx
All decisions are economic and economic problems wipe all the others off the board — apart from health. I have been where you are. So many of us have. It’s a humiliating and isolating experience but you are absolutely not alone in it and you have done nothing wrong. Keep going. Bet on yourself and on love. Your girls are in good hands. Faith ❤️❤️❤️
Thinking of you, as you navigate this part of your journey. Holding you and your family in my thoughts 🩵
Phew! I’m glad you got the outcome you needed 😬good luck with the house hunt. The state pretends to care but it simply doesn’t. some of the people care, but the cogs as you so well describe are cruel